2019...Are you ready to embrace it?

Saturday, 12 January 2019


(a simple painting I did last winter)

The past couple of weeks have been rough. The flu has left me 2 weeks without sleep and have taken all of my energy. I thought I had avoided getting sick at all in 2018 and then life thought, nah, better throw it at her before the year ends. And it has been a never ending flu. Just when I think i'm getting a good day I wake up the next day feeling even worst. 

Anyways, moving past me complaining about the flu, let's talk about 2019.
It's a new year and although it's obviously not starting off great for me, i'm ready to embrace it and do my best to accomplish everything I want to achieve. This year will be all about motivation and inspiration for me. I want to focus on my creative side, the side that I usually keep half locked away, a creative mind imprisoned partially in a darkness. What I mean by that is I've let myself become lost over the past years. My inspiration had drained, my mind too heavy, I lost a big part of myself. I've always been a very creative and artsy person when I was young and then I grew up and I let things hold me back like my anxiety and fears. I kicked myself down and made myself believe that I was not good enough and there was no point to even try. And that makes me sad because I could have done so much more, I could have created so much more if I just pushed and believed in myself. I could have been very happy. 
This year i'm going to put everything I have into creating things that matter to me. I'm going to allow expression to lead the way. Art used to be a way for me to express a part of my soul, say the things I wanted to say or let different emotions out whether that be sadness or happiness. I never share things with people and never allow people to see me feeling anything but happiness, it's just something I've never been comfortable with. That's why art has always been a way for me to express those things because it's not to anyone in particular but as i'm drawing or creating something, I feel like that's my way of expressing parts of myself into the universe, allowing my heavy shoulders a chance to rest. I also found myself writing a lot recently, little poems and such and it feels good so I am also going to focus and writing more as well. 

2019 will not be about changing myself but embracing a part of me that already exist. 

What are your goals for 2019? 

- Kelsey xx


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